On musical recordings

A little follow up to my last entry talking about musical form . . .

Over the past few years I’ve noticed that I like hearing certain musicians live better than on their precisely recorded albums. I may have said something to this effect a year or two ago as well, but the idea has become more pronounced in the past six months or so. A few examples.

Last month I heard Leesha Harvey play at Grand Island’s Art in the Park. I really enjoyed the brief set where she played guitar and harmonica, with one person backing her up. I bought her album, and on first listen I was missing the simplicity of her live performance.

In Nashville we were privileged enough to be at an Andrew Peterson concert (I really wanted to go to a Katie Herzig concert the next evening, but on account of the Hutchmoot festivities decided against even trying to make that). I didn’t know who Peterson was but very much appreciated his use of instrumentation. An upright bass, Kenny Hutson playing a variety of stringed instruments. When we listened to the Counting Stars album on the drive back though, it was a bit anticlimactic.

So what’s different about live performances? Firstly, they aren’t perfect. Secondly, they aren’t usually as complex in that there aren’t layers of recordings (from what I understand) such as on a finished CD. Thirdly, the quality of the voices and the instruments is, well, accurate. This last point may be the most important to me.

Don’t get me wrong, I love having so much music available to be played on my home stereo, our entire library on one little electronic device — our eclectic collection literally at a fingertip. But I wonder with this luxury we’re missing out on something as listeners. I’m probably not the first person to suggest this, but it’s been on my mind.

Racism at the bank

So I went to the bank again this afternoon. Ahead of me in line were people of all colors and ethnicity, again. The man directly in front of me was in what I presume to be in native garb from somewhere in North Africa, a simple white robe and a well crafted skull cap of sorts.

An American man got into line behind me. He had a young Latino next to him with whom he spoke fluent Spanish. Apparently the American, from what I could tell, was helping this man open or withdraw from a bank account.

Africans at a bank in the Midwest.

In this particular Wells Fargo branch there is a large antique scale. The American told the Latino to go see how much he weighed. As he went to discover that he weighed a slight 120 pounds, the man escorting him said to me under his breath, “Too many of them here. Too many of them too,” he continued while pointing to the African man in front of me. “They’re taking over.”

I had to restrain myself from replying to this blatant racism, though in my mind I formulated a response, something to the effect that “I appreciate the cultural diversity that’s come to the Midwest.” He’d just come in and I didn’t really know how much of a conversation I wanted to have in line at the bank, a conversation of that nature. So I said nothing and looked ahead.

As the line was fairly long and slow we did end up exchanging a few more words, mostly to discuss our weight, the pens in the bank which never write and how Fridays are always the busiest day to make a deposit. It became somewhat obvious this man was pretty unhappy in general, or at least liked to complain. I wondered if he was harboring some sort of bitterness that poured into all aspects of his life, including impatiently waiting in line at the bank.

I know this is a fairly common prejudicial sentiment, but what I don’t understand at all is how people get there. I grew up in a very, very Caucasian Midwestern community. There were a lot fewer Latin immigrants (legal or otherwise) then than now, and very few black people in the town.

The one black kid I remember in school, in my grade, was a bully. He was a leader and had a cadre of people around him that didn’t respect anyone else for the most part. My first life experiences with an African American were negative, and yet I’m somehow not harboring any ill feelings towards him or people of any color.

How is it then that so many Americans, perhaps particularly in the Midwest, find and foster such feelings towards people of other ethnicities? Is it thanks to media reports that talk about crime in the poorer neighborhoods where immigrants end up living? Did they have parents who instilled specific prejudices instead of compassion, respect and love for other people as themselves? Or did they have bad experiences like I did as a child that they couldn’t work through?

Last weekend my wife and I were thinking about patriotic American holidays and church. We were wondering if the patriotism often worked into Sunday morning services on or near certain holidays — which my wife and I don’t really appreciate — would be lost on someone not born in the United States. Other’s pointed out, though, that these people might have a greater appreciation for America and feel right as rain celebrating the country (in lieu of celebrating God, which is the problem we have with such services).

And this makes sense in most cases. So how do so many Americans end up so down on these people who so love their country? Isn’t it flattery for people to try and get into your country for the freedoms and opportunities it affords?

I’ve heard the arguments against immigration, so spare me your pat rhetoric in response to my deeper apolitical inquiry. And understand that I’m not condoning the illegal crossing of borders here. The man in question at the bank this afternoon should know better than to assume all or most immigrants are illegal. The Africans in line were almost certainly not illegal. They were probably refugees.

How can so many Americans have so little sense of their personal history? How can they forget so easily that this country is a country of immigrants (my sincere apologies to the Native Americans)? I’m grateful for my own family’s interest in their history. I’m glad that I’m regularly reminded by my parents and grandparents of our Danish, Swedish and German heritage. Apparently there’s a little bit of French in there too somewhere. Do other families not talk about their roots? Doesn’t someone in their clan have an affinity for genealogy?

My best guess as to why people find and foster this kind of hatred is that they’re scared. Scared of the reported crime, whether or not it’s an accurate representation of the immigrant community as a whole. Scared of losing jobs I suppose, even though we all know the immigrants generally take jobs a lot of us Americans aren’t willing to do anyway (though I suppose this economy may have changed that to a degree). Scared of the unknown.

Really I just don’t understand, as I said before. I’m not perfect. If we’re honest with ourselves we all know that we harbor some bias, some prejudice. But aren’t things like love for one’s neighbor still basic cultural values in America? Do we not hold to the truth that all men are created equal?

TV as a time-suck, and as a part of us

I grew up with a very moderated television viewing schedule. In fact, the one small TV in our house was often relegated to our parent’s closet if they thought we were watching too much. Cable was out of the question. For the longest time we didn’t own a VCR; we rented one from the video store. As the kids got older this electronic banishment became less and less common, but in college I basically only saw one show, The Simpsons, in the dining hall at supper. I didn’t have a television in my room and really didn’t want one.

A few months after my wife and I got married we inherited the same little TV that occasionally hid out in mom and dad’s closet, along with a VCR that liked to eat tapes. We found that we liked to watch movies together, as so many people do. Since then we’ve upgraded to a relatively inexpensive flat panel television and a DVD player (although streaming from Hulu and Netflix via the Wii have been our preferred modes of video reception of late). We still like to watch movies together but also watch television. In fact, in the past 18 months we’ve watched a lot more television than film, mostly on DVDs. It’s much more pleasant sans the commercials, which probably doesn’t need to be said.

My wife, being female, can multitask. She knits or spins with a show on in the background. That’s harder for me to do, especially considering how much messier my chosen crafts generally are than hers. I’m usually more particular about what I watch than she is partly for this reason. I end up getting sucked into the programs, some that I don’t even like — like 24 — and that’s a giant waste of time when I could be sculpting or working on Scissortail instead. 24 is actually playing in the background as I type this entry.

There are some decent things about 24, such as the overall concept. But I don’t like the writing. 95% of the dialogue is just cheesy and often unaware of itself, and many of the characters are simply idiotic at times. The show also suffers from redundancy. Subsequent seasons are basically the same plot rehashed. A lot of shows grow old before they need to after finding a formula that works, that keeps viewers and advertisers coming back. The art, the imagination that drove the original idea, seizes up in light of the almighty dollar.

Image from Wikipedia

So why do I watch? My best guess is that it has something to do with the innate importance of story in our lives as humans. This is something that I’m just beginning to realize thanks in large part to my wife, who manages to read about 85 books a year. I barely get through five, and most of them are nonfiction.

TV, and therein story, can be more than entertainment. In my own life Bones is a good example of this. The wife began watching this show on a recommendation, as I recall, and it took me a while to get into it. The gruesome representations of human remains stuck in my head, unpleasantly, and I grew tired of the psychopaths. The show is very good though, and I’ve stuck with it. The characters are wonderful, as is the interplay between them — particularly between Booth and Bones. The dialogue is sharp and witty. And most interestingly I’ve become desensitized to the images of decomposing flesh.

Of course, such is commonly considered one of the evils of television. We see murders, we see violence and our observation presumably devalues human life. We’ll begin to emulate the actions of the characters as we continue to follow their stories.

We’ll all be emulating the corpses portrayed on Bones in some way or another (though hopefully not as murder victims dumped down a sewer drain) at some point, barring a present rapture or cremation. Or mummification, but that’s beside the point. Death is reality. Bones helped bring our human mortality to light in my life, at least in part. I’ve never been to a funeral for a person I knew, which for a person of my age seems out of the ordinary — though something to be thankful for as well — at least to me. So the reality of our finite time on Earth is a lesson I’ve had to come by through other means. In this case, through story.

What I’m wondering at the moment is this: How can we balance listening to other people’s stories, written in books or as a television series, with making or living out our own stories?

In a month we’ll be in Nashville for the Hutchmoot. The thrust of the moot will the importance of stories (from what I can tell anyway; I’m not sure there’s actually a theme). From the moot’s website:

We want you to come and enjoy a weekend of music and conversation about the stories all around us in song, film, books — and most importantly the story being told through our lives; our own story — what it means to get to the holy hidden heart of it, how to tell a better story with the days we’re given, and how our stories intersect each other’s and connect to the Great Story.

I’m grateful for the written word, for oral traditions and I’m grateful for photographic media (including video) as well. I’m glad I’m able to be a part of other people’s stories and learn from their experiences. However, at times I worry we neglect our own stories in favor of other’s.

I’m trying to figure out how to keep that from happening in my own life, how to find a balance.

On having goals

This post has been drafted for months now, and I just haven’t come up with a better way to put these ideas. So, here they are.

In the past six months or so I’ve realized how little in life I’ve set and attempted to complete any kind of long-term goals. In some ways I’m just not a very goal-oriented person when I think about it, but when I think about it some more I can be very driven, and being a goal-setter seems a natural extension of this mindset.

In some ways I haven’t had to think about long-term goals up until now. There was deciding on a major before college, changing majors during college (which was actually a somewhat painful deliberation) and then less than a year after graduating before becoming involved with Mission Data International. Once we were serving (or attempting to serve via support raising) with M-DAT we did have one long-term goal in mind, but it didn’t seem to be something we needed to labor over so intently since we were, in our human thinking, on the right track to achieve it at the time.

Since then we’ve been derailed, or at the least been diverted onto a side track. This change in direction seemed to be doubly affirmed when our house in Arkansas sold ten twelve months ago. I was hoping, even after having to put it on the market, that I’d find some supplemental part-time work in town (Siloam Springs, that is) before the house would sell. God had other plans though, and he’s set those plans into motion — even if we don’t know what they are for certain yet. The house sold in two weeks and a month after that we were moving into a somewhat crazy, at the time, downtown living arrangement.

And maybe, at least in part, all of this thinking about goals creeps up on a person when they enter their 30s.

Now the wife and I have set a long-term goal, a big goal that seems in many ways insurmountable in the Scissortail Art Center. This pursuit is a thrilling idea for me and also feels necessary. I will probably set other nearer term goals related to my own sculpture, maybe language learning and reading as well, but at the moment I have a deep-seated felt need to establish and work towards a larger and enduring idea.

30th anniversary of the Night of the Twisters

Today is the 30th anniversary of the Night of the Twisters. I was only three years old at the time but distinctly remember parts of the event. As previously mentioned, a few of us in Grand Island were planning an event to commemorate that harrowing eve. Unfortunately, none of that event came together for a variety of reasons. So I’m marking today with this simple post.

Image from the website called The Real Night of the Twisters.

On missing downtown living

I mentioned missing loft living a while back although couldn’t pinpoint exactly why. Last night the wife and I drove through downtown Grand Island, our old stomping grounds, just to see what was playing at the theater.

As we drove by she suggested that one reason we likely miss downtown is that we feel out of touch, disconnected. Even in a short five weeks (maybe it’s six now). Despite not deeply connecting with the downtown community — assuming there is one — during the eight months we lived on Third Street, there is something about living in the center of the city. (not speaking geographically).

We didn’t end up going to many movies at the theater downtown (though we intended to), but just knowing what was playing gave us more of a connection to the community than we have now. Watching the people walk to the theater, line up in the rain for a popular film. Or taking note of the empty parking spots for less popular films. Sure we have some great neighbors in our new hood, but that’s a small slice of the pie — a relational slice that I do count as quite important — even if we have more of a relationship with them than we did with anyone else downtown (and with effort we could probably have the same kind of relationships regardless of where we’re living).

Before living downtown I always assumed I’d like living downtown. After a while of actually living downtown, however, I wasn’t necessarily convinced. Part of the lack of enthusiasm on my part might, admittedly, have been a lack of effort on my part. But in retrospect, I did enjoy the place as I expected too.

As an organized person, am I a failure as an artist?

Yesterday I spent a lot of time doing what I do after moving into a new space, organizing. I tried to repair some of the lousiest attempts at building shelving I’ve ever seen, screwed some cabinets I bought at a garage sale for next to nothing to the wall and I intend to continue performing some of these organizational tasks today. I never go so far as to recreate a California Closet in every corner of the house, but I am predisposed to appreciate a certain level of organization. Actually, I’d go so far as to say that I need this certain undefined level of organization.

However, a question crept into my head as I worked yesterday: Am I a failure as an artist because I spend too much time and energy organizing? I ask this in jest (with a tinge of seriousness on the side). Am I not a serious artist because I spend so much time setting up a space as opposed to actually making work? Would a “real” artist have moved all of their artistic tools first and just left everything else at the old place to collect dust so they could work on their sculpture?

Nah, I don’t really think so (only a little bit do I think so). I have to believe that crafting a space in an organized fashion will result in a more productive studio.

Right?

Vacation. It’s like an Entmoot, but we’re not going to war.

Seems as though we’re headed to Nashville for vacation.

This morning the wife registered us for a Hutchmoot. “An entmoot, without the ents.” It sounds like a nice little retreat, although it’s geared much more (almost solely) towards the bookish — such as my wife — rather than visual art types like me. The Rabbit Room is sponsoring the event and retains an interest in the the visual arts, but only one of it’s official members claims such a title and she would rather be performing her foodie duty by cooking for those of us attending.

I can only think of one trip we’ve called “vacation” in our almost nine years of marriage. We made off through Missouri and stopped at the Botanical Gardens to see a Dale Chihuly installation. A lot of our time off of work has been spent traveling for fundraising in order to serve with M-DAT. Other times we didn’t feel travel was financially feasible and opted for a working (i.e. home-improving) staycation.

And often we don’t know where we want to go or what we want to do. Both of us would like to explore the Northeastern and Northwestern corners of the U.S., and both of us would like to travel internationally if we can. We like the idea of meandering around a place with a camera, eating good local food and experiencing some of the local culture. I very much dislike tourist traps, and therein places that are geared to attract tourists. This is one of the reasons I’m not at all interested in going to places like Branson or Las Vegas. And I’m not interested in cruises either, which have become mightily popular, it seems to me, since I graduated from college.

The one vacation we had laid out for ourselves at one point involved travel to Washington D.C. and New York City via Amtrack. And then we learned how expensive it is to take a train in and around the States.

Despite not being able to muster up much interest in the topics the Hutchmoot intends to delve into in 2010, this kind of trip may be the best kind of vacation for us anyway. It gets us away together — road trips are great for conversation — and gives us some intellectual stimulation with like minded people. (A significant part of why my wife wants to attend this particular event is to meet her brain twin face to face). Yes, I think gatherings such as the Hutchmoot could become a somewhat regular vacation destination for us.

If we’re so blessed, our next one might be to the Glen Workshop. I just wish it weren’t in New Mexico in August.

The soundtrack of my life

One of the things working for a painter has allowed me to do is listen to more music than I have made time for in quite a few years. I’ve always developed strong associations between music and other experiences or time periods. Some of the older tunes that have randomly played on the iPod over the past four months got me thinking, “I should create the soundtrack of my life.” So hear it is.

Disc 1: My Youth

      1: Manic Monday — What I remember playing on my first radio, that my grandparents gave me for Christmas round about 2nd grade.
      2: Guns ‘n Roses — What my best friend made popular in my own life in fifth grade. I really had no reason for liking or disliking heavy metal at first; it was just what the other angst-ridden, pre-pubescent guys around me were listening too.
      3: Move This — Technotronic became my best friend’s next new musical love, and I followed suit. We’d practice breakdancing in the basement and show off at the junior high dances. He was better than I was. I think it was because he was shorter.
      4: Enya — Yes, Enya. I don’t know how I learned of her but I liked her sound. I played her music while flying around the virtual world of Microsoft’s Flight Simulator, for hours at a time.
      5: No More Tears — Was this an attempt to counter the femininity of the previous track? My musical taste has always seemed to be somewhat eclectic, at least since I started paying it any attention. Ozzy Osbourne’s lengthy piece, including whales harmonizing with each other, lead into my first trip to Disney World.
      6: Hearts of Space — Somehow, after the family’s first trip to Disney, I found the Hearts of Space. This was probably a response to the instrumental music I heard waiting in line for the Space Mountain roller coaster. I listened to the NPR program regularly into my college years until the schedule changed. And the music all started to sound the same.

Disc 2: College

    1: Opuszine — At some point fairly early in the course of the 5.5+ years earning my BFA in studio art I found Opuszine — a website with articles written by an acquaintance I went to church with — which featured all kinds of obscure and wonderful new music I didn’t know existed, such as the Revolutionary Army of the Infant Jesus.
    2: Starflyer 59 — My first year at the university (my second year as a college student), I was dumped by my first girlfriend (of two months). Neither of us understood the importance of basic communication in a relationship. At the time I was listening to Americana by Starflyer 59. I still listen to their albums anytime I can.
    3: World Wide Message Tribe — Midway through college life I picked up my love for electronic music again with WWMT’s danceable tunage.
    4: Havalina Rail Company — Still one of my favorite bands, I loved how they themed their albums. It was more than just a random bunching of three minute songs all vying for number one on the charts. Each album is one work. In particular I remember listening to Space, Love and Bullfighting after purchasing it on a trip to Tulsa — probably the same trip we spent a night in the Price Tower — to celebrate one of our anniversaries (which would technically fit onto a later life album).
    5: Saviour Machine — I would listen to their 90 minute Legend albums straight through with headphones, sometimes in order, during the summers. It was exhausting, but worth it. Operatic death metal, gotta love it. Still waiting for Legend III:II.
    6: Pipe organ — After I was dumped during the Starflyer 59 era I dated another girl from Concordia University in Seward, Nebraska. She helped me learn to love the pipe organ. Previously the organ left a bad taste in my mouth; growing up hearing electric organs play hymns like a dirge so many Sunday mornings.

3: The rest of my 20s

    1: Ambient Theology — A project by the obscure electronica group Virus (whose tune “Forest” remains one of my all-time favorites) that I always associate with driving in the middle of the night with Hannah to Oklahoma to visit my future in-laws in Enid.
    2: Rachmaninov’s vespers — I became very interested in ancient music for a while, and still love most any sacred choral arrangement. I remember subjecting my cousin and siblings to the vespers while driving — wait for it — to Disney World (from Daytona Beach) on yet another Florida trip to see the family. Or was it Arvo Part . . .
    3: Prelude and Fugue in C Major, BWV 547 — This lesser known Bach organ work was our wedding march. It still gives me chills; it’s a stunning work of musical genius in my untrained opinion.
    4: Eisley — Before they really came to fame I somehow happened upon an Eisley EP online. It played in my car for almost a year as I drove to and from work. Their sound is unique and somewhat enigmatic. I’m not sure I ever really liked it entirely, but I did keep listening.
    5: Sufjan Stevens — The ArtsandFaith.com crowd turned me on to Sufjan Stevens, and I’ll forevermore be glad they did.
    6: Soundtracks — Does everyone have a musical period they can label “Soundtracks?” My favorites were, and probably still are, Lord of the Rings, Pirates of the Caribbean and Hero.

4: Early 30s

    1: Folk — A few years ago the wife and I developed a playlist for the iPod called “Folk.” It’s been a favorite ever since. It includes local favorites Traci Rae Letellier and Fool for Now as well as more widely known artists such as Jolie Holland, Norah Jones and Over the Rhine.

This is a fairly abbreviated list, just trying to hit the broader themes.

My wife and I have both lamented how little new music we’ve made time for in the past four or five years, but we continue to appreciate the Folk playlist and I continue to be drawn more and more to small local music scenes. Hopefully we can make a little more time for new music in the future.

1,350 mile weekend

Just another brief update. This past weekend I drove back to Northwest Arkansas, for the first time since moving from there nine months ago, via Harveyville, Kansas. My wife stayed in Harveyville for yarn school at the Harveyville Project where she furthered her spinning technique and learned how to dye fiber.

I put in some hours at Mission Data International‘s HQ and visited with friends. I talked with occasional contributor Matt Pearson over breakfast about the idea for an artist retreat and the potential of the Hazelton Mfg. Co. building as a location for said retreat. He had some good ideas I’ll have to add to our brainstorm before they slip my mind.

On the way back I was able to meet up with the b.a.l.m. crowd in Lawrence, Kansas for a Sunday morning brunch. We ate crepes and quiche (made with emu egg) and then talked about our work and lives as [aspiring] artists (I had to leave early to pick Hannah up from the retreat).

Chances were decent for us to see some storms on the drive, but for the most part it was overcast and rainy. I did catch this image of just south of Lawrence Saturday evening.

Oh, and we took the puppy with us and she did very well on her first road trip. She even had another puppy to play with for a couple of days.